Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Design samples!

It's nice to design again.

For our show with Karli & Ghosts and Liars! woot woot!

For Pen & Paper Propaganda

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Recent Anticipations

New Thrice record yummy yum yum, going on tour with Karli Fairbanks, thanksgiving & christmas vacation with familia and lovely ones, shaving off this beard YUCK!, working on music with Wonder hymns are the best!, leaving hotmail for gmail, reconnecting to my friend Doug, getting back into the design world by creating posters for next several shows, i'll try to share what they look like when i'm done, hearing from jessica anytime,getting out of california! getting white high tops ( you will be mine, oh yes you will be mine), doing laundry, cooking with ben and then exercising. this is as exciting as my life is right now.

(example of my poster work for our Q cafe show with Karli! woot woot!)

Monday, October 22, 2007

A Great Hate and Longing

I'm sitting in the airport of the worst city in the world (las vegas) and this lady walks by carrying a nice glossy shopping bag that has the emblem of the playboy bunny on it. This pains me with great anger. I'm tired of seeing ladies with a playboy bunny decal, shopping bag, hats, tshirts displayed on their person or belongings. I'm screaming in my mind "what are you doing?" this filth that objectifies you, that says your only value is your skin? Why would you display this perversion? I can't wrap my mind around it, i don't understand at all. It makes me so so sad as well.

I just left a beautiful retreat designed for highschool girls with GV, and i heard these tragic stories of self/outside abuse, from pregnancies to cutters, from low self esteem to random sex, from drug abuse and alcohol, i've never heard so much darkness, and yet these girls were sharing in front of 100 other girls of their darkest and scariest parts of their lives and they allowed me to see their courage and strength. God knew what He was doing when he took from adams side to create the woman after the Creators heart, the Creators beauty. I saw value restored to 100 girls this weekend, and it wasn't from anything except the love of their Heavenly Father. I left these girls with Ephesians 2:10, i pray it for them continually. I hate that this gift of God to this world and to Men has been dwindled down to the external, God has built us inside out, He looks inside, He works on the inside, He lives on the inside. Thats where i want to treasure this gift of woman as well, i don't want to ever be hung up on her outside, i love that we can all be healed for God and for each other. Thank you ladies for showing me more of the God i love and long to be like.

On the mend

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Oh God divide me from this portion,
this place my heart cannot give to you.

Have I not left you, from affair to affair?
Have you not made me man?
Yet i act the beast, all appetite.

Can you take?
Can you rob me of this?
As soon as these words breathe
I consider what i ask.

Is there any of You left in me?
Can you still tell that I'm in Your image?

Oh grace abound
Who can i share my victories and disasters with but You?
From my coming and going,
From the heights and my descents,
From my loyalty and affairs,
Oh grace abound
Who can I share my victories and disasters with but You?

Tell me that I'm still in your pattern
That You still see Yourself in me

Wednesday, October 17, 2007


There have been 4 songs just stuck in my head over and over lately and i should think that you would like to hear them, so in your interest/curiosity as to what i speak of check out the following and bop your head with me.

Well you can't really bop to the Johnny Cash one, but yeah.

Delta Spirit: People Turn Around ( i sing this mostly around GV for some reason)

Johnny Cash: Hurt (Rediscovered this gem and sing it mostly with tric when he starts)

Paper Rings: Fake it All (Saw the family trio perform @ TOMFEST and liked instantly)

Lupe Fiasco: Kick, Push (Hip-Hop needs no reason, too Yummy)

Das iz Paper Rings, Das very gud.

Sunday, October 14, 2007


I'm weaker then the willow weeping
that fights to reach the ground

I think this fuels & defines my sadness
when i can't do enough to try

Oh spare me the shame
more than the guilt

Oh private sins
you friends of darkness
I have been exposed

My knees plead
when you drive me to them
So in this weakness
know who rises after bending down to touch me
the One whose light says that you can't be around

Oh defeated sins
you friends of darkness
I have been exposed

May You Be Covered In the Dust of the Rabbi

I heard Jose Rojas speak this morning about discipleship. He spoke how back in the day Rabbi's would choose from their schools someone that they would teach to be just like them. This school would teach children to memorize the first 5 books of the Bible, SERIOUS YO! The first time the students met the Rabbi he would place a container full of honey in front of the class, he would walk around the class and let the children dip a finger into the honey and pull it out. Now honey was the only real sweet thing around and usually was only possessed by the rich, so when children would start their school with the rabbi it may have been the first time they had tasted/seen honey. After the class would have the honey dripping down their hands the teacher would have them suck it off while he said 'may the word be as sweet to me as this honey'. How amazing?! I remember memorizing verses from the bible when i was young, and many i remember, but as i got older the memorization of the word became less encouraged and prioritized in my education.

These days i'm getting back into it, especially promises that are given to us in the word. They have become a safeguard and encouragement to me. One that has been powerful to me is this short one in James 4:8 "Therefore submit to God, resist the devil, and he will flee from you". This has gotten me out of dwelling on my mistakes and current thoughts, it always helps. I find it ridiculous how much i have put to memory over knowing the word, i know the words to the most obscure songs, songs that i don't even like! As well as lines from favorite movies/and the Office...If i could have the same memory of the scripture as these silly meaningless things i know my life would be transformed and lived more fully, so i'm startin'!

When the Rabbi would choose a studend he would say "Come, Follow Me", and the son would leave his home the next day and go place to place and learn everything from the Rabbi. On his way out the mother would say a blessing "may you be covered in the dust of the Rabbi" The beauty of following Jesus is the same, "Come, Follow Me", you can only be covered in dust if you are walking behind the one making the dust kick up, so in a way, lets get dirty!

Friday, October 5, 2007

Step On In

What's bothering you right now?
Not knowing how much is in the bank, missing my dear ones
What is in your wallet?
License, origami heart made from chocolate wrapper, bank cards, guitar pick, half a chopstick wrapper that has really cool fish on it

Wallpaper on your computer's desktop?
Next time you will kiss someone?
maybe today, patrick or bruce, ben isn't ready!

Where was your default picture taken?
from the internet?

What color eyes do you have?

Is about being loved and loving, thats all. Receiving love from the Author of love, and sharing it, and then receiving love from others.

My house:
12 seater passenger van

Doing this weekend?
Doing a show in loma linda, hugging doug.

Ericas pajamas that i haven't given back since she let me use them in DC, (SORRY) and a nice fitted crimson tshirt.
Who was the last person to send you a text message?

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Committed trust to God about all things.

Listening to?
B.R.M.C, the Strokes, and my memories of this last week in New Mexico

Have you ever kissed anyone named Patty?
Patrick deff. counts yes?

What do you smell like?
Sparkling peach, amazing soap.

Have yet to

On your bed, what is your favorite thing?
Pillow, its wherever i go.

Do you believe in a soul mates?
I deff. believe that there are people you connect amazingly with, in a way that is beyond similarities in interests and likings.

What do you usually wear to bed?
not much

Do you remember your dreams?
All of the time, unless i didn't sleep the night before and its recovery sleep

Do you burn easily in the sun?
pretty much

Have you ever been gambling?

What's something you wish you could understand better?
My neediness in diff. parts of my life

What did you do last weekend?
Played a show, saw a french film with Jessica, drew with Vincent, ate a lot of protein

Who is the last girl you hugged?
Sandy when we got to Anthem arizona last night

Orange or apple juice?
both, come on.

Who was the last person you went somewhere with?
tric,bruce, & ben, i go EVERYWHERE with them

Have you kissed anyone on your top friends?
oh for sure

Last time you ate a home grown tomato?
in the past month i believe

What was the last thing you drank?
Apple Juice

Who's house did you go to last night?
Mert and Sandy's

Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
My grandma Mary Lou

What did you do today?
Rolled out of bed at 8am! amazing!

What do you wear more, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants?
I have 2 pairs of jeans.

What is the last movie you watched? With who?
Moliere, with Jessica

Name 3 drinks you love:
Earl Grey, Coke, Fresh squeezed orange juice

What are you excited about?
thanksgiving and christmas, GV of course, writing letters, having a beard soon

Do you want someone you can't have?
my grandparents, but soon enough with the aid of Jesus coming back

Who was last to slap your butt?

Who's butt did you slap last?

Where was the last place you went?
Grand Canyon yo!

What's on your mind right now?
Seeing the Strokes before i die, having devotions, working on patience with my satisfaction in God, a hug x 20 from a couple of days ago

Have you cried recently?
yes, in my desperation on my knees

If an unstoppable force comes across an unmovable object then what happens?
they are both not 'un' anymore

Is taking a shower a daily habit?
For the most part yes, it depends on where we are.

Who was the last person you slept with?
tric or bruce, sometimes we have to depending on sleeping arrangements at places we stay, no bother though

What is your favorite movie?
HEAVEN, with Giovanni Ribisi and Cate Blanchett, as well as LIFE AQUATIC, with Bill Murray

What do you listen to when you are in a bad mood?
I need thee every hour, by Jars of Clay

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Goin' for it

I decided to go for the beard challenge with the boys from seven years absence. On sept. 30 i clean shaved and with nervousness about it all am courageing on. I kinda already regret doing it, but then again, i'm not going to see many people that i know since i'm on the road right now, and when am i going to be able to do this again, especially with a group of amazing gents. The added bonus of nervousness about this hair venture is that i'm already pursuing the growing my hair out till christmas day as well, so Hippy/Jesus comments will ensue. If you are a friend of mine please do come up with a new/clever comparison. ugh, may the face scratching begin, I'm saying sorry now to you who will embrace me in the next couple months, really, sorry.